Depressing

The weather is so depressing these few days and it will be even more depressing as winter progresses. On my way home last night after work, with every step along the way, I smashed my boots in the dirty snow childishly making the “chia” sound. The roaring wind pushed me to lower my hood, which then resulted in me staring down at my own childish act. The rhythm of “chia” became faster as I sped up the process, I’ve been stepping harder and faster at the same time. Little did I know, I’ve walked past my home without realizing it. By the time I found out, I’m already at the end of the street. I pulled off my hood, turned around, saw a pedestrian walking towards me, pulled the hood back, and began walking backwards towards my house. I tried pulling my hood really really down and walking normally so that I won’t look too too stupid when I’m passing him by.

I don’t really like it when strangers talk to me in public, especially when I’m on a tight schedule. I hate it when they are rude or trying to make me sign up for stuff. But what ticks me off the most is when I have no idea what they said.. So this morning on my way to work, I was walking along Adelaide when I happened to encounter this random stranger. He walked passed me and said something that sounded like this, “blah blah blah-ai.” So basically the only sound I picked up is the ending sound “ai”. My immediate reaction was smiling to him as he passed me by. But then I realized that he could’ve said “Get out of my way!”, which would really piss me off. This thought really made me angry because I’d be such a loser if I smiled back to something like that. I tried to think positive, so I thought to myself that he could’ve said “Have a nice day!”, which would’ve been nice and worked out fine with me smiling back to him. And then I started thinking other possible phrases that he could’ve said.. including a question: “Where is The Bay?” and other foreign language possibilities. By the time I realized that I’ve walked past my office, I was already on an unknown intersection. Once again, I got my hood down. Seriously, as if that’s going to make me look less stupid for walking backwards! Grr.. how I hate this weather.. and grr.. how I hate getting lost!

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