drenched in music

Title: Hey Jude
By: Beatles


Hey Jude, don’t make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better
Hey Jude, don’t be afraid
You were made to go out and get her
The minute you let her under your skin
Then you begin to make it better
And anytime you feel the pain, hey Jude, refrain
Don’t carry the world upon your shoulders
For well you know that it’s a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder
Na Na Na Na Na Na-Na-Na-Na-Na
Hey Jude, don’t let me down
You have found her, now go and get her
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better
So let it out and let it in, hey Jude, begin
You’re waiting for someone to perform with
And don’t you know that it’s just you, hey Jude, you’ll do
The movement you need is on your shoulder
Na Na Na Na Na Na-Na-Na-Na-Na
Hey Jude, don’t make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her under your skin,
Then you’ll begin to make it
Better better better better better better, YEAH.
Na na na, na-na-na-na, na-na-na-na, hey Jude…
Na na na, na-na-na-na, na-na-na-na, hey Jude…
Na na na, na-na-na-na, na-na-na-na, hey Jude…
Na na na, na-na-na-na, na-na-na-na, hey Jude…

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mom is not home again..

my stupid haircut

susan guo: hahahahaha (can’t stop laughing)
linna: so ugly.. and fobby.. what’s wrong with you
mike: i can’t look at you.. i just can’t look at you right now.. can you please put on my hat?
bob: err.. it’s not that it’s a bad haircut, it’s just that your old one was really good!
co-worker: your haircut.. hm.. makes you look younger! (this is coming from someone who thought i was 13 years old)

lol.. for anyone else who’s curious as matt, here’s how i look like now:
http://uwaterloo.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2063555&l=2f216&id=122604447

if you laugh you die (and yes, susan died!.. lol jk)

Thanks for the 50 cents tip..

First of all.. Happy Bday to Susan~ (not me, another susan.. >_>)

Susan, if you are reading this, you probably will figure out what I’m about to say just from the title.. I went with Susan and a few of her friends tonight to celebrate her birthday. The last stop was at a bubbletea place on College street close to Spadina called 168 Teashop or something similar. We stayed there for about 2~3 hours and everyone placed a order. In the end, we went up to the counter and requested separate bills. Mine came to a total of 5.12, and since I remember the original price was 4.49, I calculated how much I need to pay for tips (I usually just pay the tax). I gave the waitress 10 and took 4.25 back from the tray. I was the last one to pay so the other girls started heading out already at this point. I then heard the waiter behind the counter collecting all the trays said, “Thanks for the 50 cents tip, guys.” I soon realized that the other girls did not pay any tips, so he was referring to my place of tips. I felt pretty bad after hearing that, but I wasn’t sure why. Well, I can now relate my emo-ness to some possible reasons:

1. The waiter was being an ass about 2 bucks worth of tips

2. I got the blame for something I wasn’t responsible for

3. The waiter felt bad

I think it was probably a combination of all three.. I don’t think I would get upset if the waiter didn’t say anything, but I know I would still get upset if I realized that the waiter felt bad about not receiving tips, so I put the third reason down. I think the first two was easy to come up with though. The waiter should not have said that to begin with, that’s just rude. There are many ways to request tips from customers with a different kind of attitude. The second one was easy to come up with, but I’m not sure whether if I was actually upset because of that, simply because I don’t really care about taking the blame for anything. I always put more responsibilities on myself anyway.

Despite everything I’ve said.. the waiter probably just had a rough day.. probably didn’t direct it on me and probably already forgot about it by now.. I should really go to bed O_O

Because of You, I am HaPPY~

I never knew something so simple would make me so happy..

I take the 25 bus from pape station every single day after I get off of the always-so-busy subway during the end of workday rush hour. The buses these days are always very very dirty. There are tons of crap caused by snow and wind sticking on the every single one of the windows. Knowing me, even though I’ve lived at my new apartment for a month now, I still couldn’t quite remember which stop I need to get off at without someone yelling to my ear to catch my attention. Sadly enough, the bus driver on this route never calls out bus stops. Even more upsetting, they’re often very rude and either dislike their job or always very sleepy when I talk to them. Because they don’t even call out the stop that I need to get off at when I specifically went over there and told them that I need to know when it’s the stop where Ontario Science Centre takes place at. After this happening to me for more than 5 times, I decided to ask the person who either stands or sits close to where I am about when to get off.

Then.. miracle happened to me today^^

Today, the bus driver called out the stop at every single bus stop! You have no idea how happy I was after missing my stop for more than 3 times now (I have bus sick, gimme a break). When it was my stop, I walked up to the driver and said, “Thank you for calling out the stops each time.” and then I smiled but I know he didn’t see it because he was concentrating on the road ahead. But when the bus came to a full stop, he turned around and smiled right back at me and said, “It’s my pleasure to know that you appreciate it.” It’s been such a long long time since someone completely a stranger being so nice to me.

I always like to smile and I’ve been told that it looks good on me (once by a complete stranger as well, but that time, it was a bit awkward). I never realize that a genuine smile from a stranger, knowing that it is being given out to you specifically because of something you did or said, would make such a difference. I honestly feel very happy after I got off of the bus and thought to myself that I should definitely smile more to people, even to strangers. The most common things we say to others, sometimes mean the most. The easiest compliments that came from the bottom of our hearts, most of the time will be greatly appreciated if being heard.

So, as an ending note, I will share another moment of my life, and this time, this thanks should be given to one of my friends back in high school..

I think it was during grade 12 when we volunteered at STAO – Student’s Teacher’s Association of Ontario. I hope I got that right >_> and when I said we, I meant a bunch of grade 12 students from my high school, the ones that I remember – Thuva, David, Vijitha, Roberto, Rudy, Natasha, Shanthan, and Ankit. If I forgot anyone, please forgive me for it was a long time ago (for my memory span, over 2 hours is unbarably long okay?) I can’t quite remember whether if it was during one of the trips to STAO or after we got back from STAO, but it took place during one of the subway trips. Omg, I’m not even sure whether if it’s STAO not.. maybe it was a Ontario Science Centre field trip?? ANYWAY, let’s limit it to a subway gather of Thuva, David, and.. omg.. were the twins there??!! I honestly don’t remember. I feel like shooting myself now.. how come I have such bad memory.. grrrrr… *cries*

I don’t recall it being rush hour, but I think what happened that time was that when we all got off of the stairs to the subway, the subway was already there and many people just rushed to get in. So did I but I was the last one running down and the door was about to close on me when I got in. AND magic hands stopped the door from closing on me, Thuva, if you are reading this, do you still remember this? I remember you were gasping when the door were closing on me. Just when the subway doors touched my arms, Ankit stopped it and forced the door to open and Thuva quickly dragged me inside the door. I still remember the sound when Ankit released the doors and they quickly closed as the subway started running. I rarely say thanks to Ankit though, and I don’t recall saying thanks or smile at him after that either. For one reason, I was pretty damn scared and was about to cry, but I don’t remember what I did.. did I actually cry? Again, please forgive my poor memory for it only has 2 hours span… or maybe even less, who knows… But yea, the second reason would be.. ANKIDO you jerk, always always tease me around.. But I guess you stop when you realize that I took it seriously like the time that Umar and Takura made me cry with the whole skiing is spelled with one I and made me go all the way down to the library and grabbing thick old dictionaries to prove them wrong and stuff.. I think I met you on my way there to grab another encyclopaedia because they said the dictionary was outdated or something. So there, I owe you 2 big thanks. THANK YOU ANKIT^^ and a big happy smile on my face right now, I hope you can see it but you can’t. I’ll remind Thuva to remind me to deliver them to you the next time I see you^^

I thank everyone who made me smile, made me laugh, made me feel good about myself, made me feel special, made me feel that I can help you, made me feel that I’m smart, made me feel that I’m your friend, made me feel that I’m pretty, made me happy, made me cry, made me me.

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回家回家我要回家了~~

1234567的歇后语应该送给马上就要完结的这段残酷又黯淡的学期末时光~~

再次感谢那几位每节课都坚持不懈地把我催眠入睡的教授们,您们辛苦了。。能把好好的课程讲得如此不堪入耳如此难以吸收也算堪称滑校一绝了吧。。所以说,您们回家要多拍拍自己的肩膀,多看几本言情小说(去谈谈恋爱也好),多出去透透风玩一玩。

天啊天啊,时间越过越快,哎呀哟喂,还没来得及打招呼就要说再见了~~ meh~

since a lot of ppl were saying that the fact that my blog is always in chinese is making them stop coming here.. i’ll translate the above into english:

actually on second thought.. nm.. it doesnt make much sense in chinese and if i translate it into english it wont make much better sense.. >_>

but today i realized something.. if we feel that our lives are boring, that thought would lead us to depression eventually.. so if you feel often upset or lonely or failed to find something to do and always wait for some special event to happen, DON’T!.. it’s time to get your lazy ass off the comfy chair and do something meaningful, whatever that might be.. picking up an abandoned interest, practising an intrustment that you’ve always been dying to try out, start a daily activity with a friend, etc etc.. for girls, the ultimate solution is to go shopping^^.. easy and effective~~ thus called the ultimate solution~~

anywayz.. i should start studying for my last exam.. math239.. *dies* *stabs the coursenote*…..

gahh.. im in the wrong program ahh ahhh ahhhh… let’s switch to fine arts ^^

hm but if i switch to fine arts, then i won’t be getting cs jobs.. but i love sitting in front of the computer all day long~~~ sigh.. toughie choice..

meh.. 顺其自然咯~ 船到桥头自然直~~ lol i still remember my dad’s answer when i asked what if the boat still didn’t line up? he said, 那我就把它撞直咯不就好了么~

polygamy

Polygamy – The condition or practice of having more than one spouse at one time.

Do you believe in polygamy? Most people would answer to me straight up claiming a solid no. I wonder tho, if society and moral values are being put behind us, would we still think that polygamy is not an acceptable, working, and healthy condition of relationships?

Why do we believe in monogamy? Is it because we truly believe in soulmate and that we are pre-determined to be with that single person for life? No. In this 21st century, divorce rates are climbing sky-high in every modern country. Then is it because we feel that we should be responsible for one person and no one else? No. Because the word cheating has been invented for a reason – the practise exists. Or is it because we feel the ought to restrict ourselves because we are human? That I can’t answer because I’m not sure what human ought to do.

In my opinion, as human beings we are by nature curious and this curiosity doesn’t end, period. Even when we are with the dearest one, the one you felt deeply attracted to, you will still be curious about others. You will never stop searching in your mind. But you might not present your actions because we are also by nature lazy. We figure that we should be content with ourselves, thus we stop trying to reach for something else, something perhaps more suitable, better for us.

Perhaps the reason we adapt to monogamy is simply because we’re lazy? If every one of us openly accept new opportunities, what kind of world would we be living in? I pondered about this the whole day. Then it hit me, would I want my other half to have the opportunity to meet others even if I have the same kind of accessibility? No! I forgot that human beings by nature are also selfish. Partner is one thing that we don’t want to share and never will. Jealousy is a built-in function in our brain that is always extremely sensitive. Thus monogamy is the right choice for mankind.. so be it.

if mom goes back, i will be by myself..

i think my mom is giving serious thoughts about going someone else.. ie china

i guess i can handle living on my own and everything but im still kinda shocked..

or not.. since lots ppl i know are going back to beijing after their kids are off to uni.. but stilllll omg..

sigh o well.. i guess shes not happy here.. so whats the point..

i told her that im all grown up and i have lots of friends who would help me out if something went wrong and i cant handle it myself.. so dun wry about me and go wherever u want and do whatever u want..

but right after i told her that i felt terribly scared..

guess i’ll have to deal with it myself.. >_<

气死我也

omg i feel sooo retarded..

i planned out the whole day today.. but then i received a phone call from thea and she told me that school/bank are both closed cuz its freakin easter monday.. wth….

*cries*

psych

something from my psych textbook:

Can sexually explicit material have adverse effects? Research indicates that it can. Depictions of women being sexually coerced–and enjoying it–tend to increase the viewers’ acceptance of the false idea that women enjoy rape and tend to increase male viewers’ willingness to hurt women. Images of sexually attractive women and men may also lead people to devalue their own partiners and relationships. After male collegians watch TV or magazine depictions of sexually attractive women, they often find an average woman, or their own girlfriends or wives, less attractive. Viewing X-rated sex films similarily tends to diminish people’s satisfaction with their own sexual partners. Some sex researchers fear that reading or watching erotica may create expectations that few men and women can hope to live up to.

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ankit, just so u know.. my finals are in less than a week..

cs – this friday

calc – following monday

wed – sociology

thurs – psych and alge (same day!!!)

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talk about being doomed, i think im in deeper shit than u~